Blogger banned once again

Lost Blogger again.

I don't know why only Blogger is being banned everytime. There are so many other blogging services that are just as much important, why are they never banned.

Lift of ban on Blogger

Strangely, I completely forgot to put a post about the lift of ban on Blogger in my country. It was banned for some small reasons, and the ban stayed for quite a long time. I don't know if the lift is temporary, or will Blogger be available to m,e and my countrymen as a regular service now, but it sure is a good step.

So here's to Blogger... and the evolved Internet in general! Cheers!!

Disappointed by Yahoo! Answers

While Blogger was banned, I was quite desperate to get it back, even had to ask around for people to suggest me a (free) blogging service as resourceful as Blogger. I came across many, but the best I liked was WordPress. I even placed a question on Yahoo Answers which turn out to be a disappointment. I (think I) had placed a serious question over there, and all I could gather were three answers which didn't prove soo helpful to me.

Automated emails from Yahoo Answers rushing to my inbox wanted me to choose a best answer out of those answers. I didn't like any of the answers, so I extended the expiry time (I hope you know how Yahoo! Answers work). Someone gave one vote to one of the people who answered out of the three, and eventually my question was shut down. I'm sure Yahoo! Answers must help a lot of people with a lot of problems, but my experience didn't turn out to be so great.

Let's just get on with it

I've been fascinated by the power and the varying nature of the blogs on the modern life. There is simply too much to be had these days. You can never be satisfied. So is the case with information. Internet has become overwhelmingly (to the limit of the being physically and psychologically) dangerous due to the enormous information it promises.

You keep jumping from page to page, walking deep down the information superhighway, and you will soon wear yourself out. But this journey is endless. You watch thousands sites a day, I guess hundreds of thousands are being added on daily basis. I've watched it grow from a tiny seed to an unbelievably large forest. I belong to a generation that that started their teens with the birth of Internet.

I remember ignoring Google to use Yahoo, Ask Jeeves or Alta Vista. I remember a world without instant messengers. I remember a world that had ICQ as the only reasonable chatting and community-networking option available. I remember a connected world that was much limited to IRC chats, and a (still) countable number of websites of some larger corporations and companies. Personal websites were almost a non-existent concept.

In my early teens, searching information as simple as the gross domestic product of Armenia, or the tallest living tree required to have encyclopedias on CD ROMS which was a 'giant leap' from the traditional use of books. Books, I totally love, but imagine finding a specific keyword in a scores of volumes of Britannica, or trying to go through old newspapers, all of them, just to find out who did what, when!

Now that Internet is fast becoming as vital as electricity in our lives, we see a lot of change in the way people perceive and refer to Internet. You don't have to go to an Internet café or a log on to Web from a personal workstation. In stead of initiating an extra effort in establishing a formal contact with the Internet, the Internet sees its way through our lives. It's fast covering us all around. Soon, we will be all wrapped up, and we will all be covered in a blanket of connectivity - no islands, no isolated beings. Everything will change.

I've always wanted to write, and I've always enjoyed writing, but I've never been able to write something worth reading. I kept a diary at diaryland many years ago. I didn't come across the word 'blog' at that time. It was through the exponential growth of Internet that made me realize how fast things have been changing.

I'm starting this blog with the intention of writing things that are dear to me, that affect me, that influence me, that motivate me, that sadden me, that are just there in my life. I'm ready to take on the world!

Started working again

OK, I finally joined my new job. It's a good one. I like the potential of growth in this opportunity. But I'm still confused. How do you compare jobs? How do you know what's good for you until you've actually had it... ? Let's not get carried away..

Again, I like my new job. It's a step up from the last one. Still not sure what I should expect in long run, but for now this job seems perfect. I would want to complete my education above anything else at this stage of life. But this time, I am not settling for just any degree and just any university. I seriously want the best!

It's not that otherwise I won't study, but then it won't be that effective. For once in life, I want to be on top of my game!

Feeling helpless

I write with a very heavy heart right now. There are times when you feel like doing a million things, and you feel helpless. They call it work anxiety. You feel like you should be doing something. I think this is just one of those days..

Sometimes you take a look at something, and you think that you've grasped enough of it to last you a lifetime. You start thinking that you know enough to be able to comfortably talk about it. And you think that you can learn more along the way. But suddenly you fall into a conversation that leaves you high and dry. Your realize that you've been living in a fool's paradise. That's when you feel helpless. You realize that what you thought you could protect was just a delusion, a mere wish strong enough to cover your eyes from the reality.

I feel I had more ideas and more certainty to fight back. There are not much good that we do with our lives. But when we're given a chance, and we're helpless in availing, passing it by helplessly, it hurts. It really hurts.

I wish I could uphold the truth! I need strength to do that.

The hunt continues.. I'm still looking for a job. I think when I finally do have a job, things will change for the better.

Waiting for good things to happen

For some reason, life has not been so pleasant for me. I always thought I had two different views of life. Sometimes, I am just overwhelmed by the beauty and joy of life, and there are moments when I would have thoughts of the other extreme.

I wish life was something that could be defined. But come to think of it, that would not be life at all. That would just be acting out a script, trying to give a performance and try to be someone that you are supposed to be. No, life is better left alone. And life is better left unpredicted and untold.

Stepping out of the metaphors, I am feeling extremely confused these days. I get a million ideas, and I think up of a million plans, but unpleasant things have happened to my ideas and schemes in the past. So I end up discarding most of them. hmm.. I have to do something... yeah, that's what the problem is. I feel a complete and utter state of unrest and unease.

I feel like I was supposed to be doing something good with my time. There was something else that I should've been doing. I jump from one idea to another, one thing to another.. and mostly end up tense... I need some consistency. I need some concentration. I have lost all my concentration, I have lost all kinds of motivation for now. I need that. I need that to get myself through life. I need that strongly. I should rather think of getting that motivation back than just write this...

I know I'm late

I never thought that it will all come down to this.

I feel like I have just been a snail in this race. I am late. People have been here, and left already. It's not like it's all empty now. It's just that I have been late. I always knew that this will happen in time, people lose interest in things all the time. People develop their own priorities, and refine their interests as they move along in life. So did I.

But.. I never thought I would stay away from such a thing for so long. I already have developed the phobia of new things - there must be some fancy name for that. I already feel like a struggle to learn new things. I thought this would never happen. But it's happening. Although at this point, I can fight back in the hope to regain my curiosity and my thirst to learn 'new' things. This optimistic feeling is the only thing keeping me going..

Only time will tell.. Let's wait and see...